going home

Date: Thursday, November 30, 2006
Time: 2:49:00 PM

i'm finally at home now.
still have to go bac hostel some time to get the remaining stuffs.
haha. all due to unforseen circumstance of not enough bags.

sad thing. i couldnt manage to finish watching goong.
i chiong-ed 12 vcds at aunt's house in one day that day, but still couldnt manage to finish.
at epi 19. chae gyung misunderstood shin goon. feel so sad for him.
hahas. sounds stupid. i'm actually feeling sad for a character in a show.
but really. it's the most appealing and nice korean drama i've ever watched. i have never been so addicted to a drama before.
hmm. the previous one is probably 'autumn in my heart' that was shown on tv few years back.
but somehow goong is different. dunno how to describe in words. it's jus so nice.
joo ji-hoon is gonna make it big man!! =P

now i'm really free. sometimes it feels empty at heart.
but that kind of emptiness somehow makes me feel happy. now i know how it feels like being stress-free, at least for the time being.
no assignments, no tests, no extra lessons.
i'm starting to come to enjoy it.
6 months of stree-free period. hoorays. this's great isn't it.
though once in a while i will worry about my results, i'll put the issue aside very fast.
this's the only time i can enjoy to the fullest after so many years of hardwork.
why not just let my guard down and be happy?
it doesnt help much even if i worry about it everyday.
BE POSSITIVE is the way.

alrites. that's all. nothing much to update.
take care palss.

Date: Monday, November 27, 2006
Time: 3:02:00 PM

fell in love with goong these days.
jus ONE day is enough to get me addicted.
i'm rushing now... aunt has the vcds. i'm going to her place to stay over tml, hopefully will be able to finish watching.

hmm. so sweet. love to see the couple quarelling. hehez.
enjoyz. great show.

Date: Friday, November 24, 2006
Time: 2:06:00 PM

my favourite song from the high school musical soundtrack

'when there was me and you' by Vanessa Anne Hudgens.

Date:
Time: 1:27:00 PM

went to halland v for dinner with pui ytd. decided to go CJ after some consideration. haha maybe the sudden crave for oriental food was at it.
and lotsa funny things happened.
there was this tall waiter( who i suspect is our countrymate) who kept talking to us, to me specifically, -_-'''
guess maybe he heard the two of us conversing in canto, then he started asking questions like,

'are u all staying here?'
'are u all locals?'
'where r u all staying?'
'are u all uni undergrads?'
'which hostel are u all staying at?'
'which part of lian bang r u all from?'
blah blah.

even after the food arrived, he still kept asking and asking and asking.

the worst past was when my noodles arrived, he asked me whether i needed them to be cut short. i almost burst out laughing. even my younger sis doesnt eat 'cut noodles' now.

then i just said politely, 'no, it's okay... thanks...'
'oh, so u like it that way?' he asked.
i gave him a smile but deep down i was shouting, 'OMG!!!!!'

and pui was like laughing there la. so paiseh.
and when we were eating, he jus stood next to our table, dunno what he was doing also, made the two of us feel so uncomfortable and restricted.

then when we were gonna feet the bill, he suddenly talked to us in canto.
before we walked out of the restaurant, he said to me ' see you again...', and once again, pui was laughing there.
haiz. damn it.

after that we walked around holland v. nothing much to shop there also...

haha. felt so contented and satisfied. the food was nice. esp the xiao long bao. at least i feel that it worth our money. lols.
after that we made CJ in holland v our lao di fang, so nez year when pui is back from her europe trip, we will have our reunion there again. haha.

still looking for job. but i guess i will stop cos no point finding a job now while i'm going home for a one-month holiday. after that then i will see how.

read the blog of one of my frens.
kinda dissapointed with him. don't really know what's in his mind. he seems lost.
backslide? i think maybe it's a good way out for him, though i'm not for it. maybe he should first learn to love himself before anything else?
haiz. dunno la.

kay. tada!

Date: Thursday, November 23, 2006
Time: 10:48:00 AM

aiks!
having a terribly hard time finding a job here. was trying to apply for few admin jobs ytd. sent my resume and stuffs. they all seemed interested at first, but after they asked for my citizenship, they were like,

sorry, we can't offer you a job as you are a foreign student.

damn. just realise that it's really difficult to get an office job. i will try my best to find one, still waiting for reply from a few firms. think if really cannot get, i will have to be a waitress. sianz.
anybody has any recommendation? i'm desperately needing a job. i don't wanna jus sit here and rot for 6 months. lol.

went jp with sis ytd.
went mos burger and had a good chat.
she asked whether i have confidence in getting 4 A's. i said impossible. she seemed shocked after that and asked, 'WHY??'
haha. 4 A's to her is like nothing la. but to me it's smth really hard to achieve.
haiz. think i'm gonna disappoint mom again. but it's okie... i've done my best and i'm sure she knows it.

the scholar thingy was cancelled last min.
we think that mayb it's the best way out.
since no one is willing to compromise, we might as well jus call it off.
few of us are like really broke, so we suggested to go to a more affordable place.
and it seemed like nobody wanted to take in our suggestion.
ytd night the 6 of us were planning to talk to them today to change it to another place. but before we managed to say it, we received an sms saying that it will be cancelled.
....what 'nobody is willing to put aside their expectation'....

alright then...
it's better.

haha. who are the ones not willing to put aside their expectation here?
us?
no money means no money. what expectation? i never had this kind of problem with my classmates, despite the fact that i'm always so broke. hahas.

anyway, shall go out with pui and ngel tonight and have our own fun. woohoos.

Date: Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Time: 11:04:00 AM

woohoo~ i have finished dumping all the unwanted stuffs. i never knew that throwing away things can be this fun.
sending away all the reference books and tys to recycling feels like getting rid of something that has smothered me for so long. i have also thrown away all the tutorials and assignments. haha, still remember those countless nights spent in front of the desk completing them. when things are done, they jus can't run away from the fate of being sent for recycling. haha.

but i still keep my chem phy and math notes... jus in case i need them in the future.

so, now i only have very little things left with me. i can even squeeze everything into one luggage. haha. sense of accomplishment. **grin grin**

aiyorr...time seems to be passing so slowly...
can't wait for thursday night to come...
meeting up with sis tonight for dinner...
then going home on the coming monday. hurray~~

alritess... tada!

Date: Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Time: 3:40:00 PM

changed skin again.
due to ultimate boredom. =/

went bugis with pui ytd...
had dinner and took neoprints. though it wasnt very much of a success( they were more like candid shots), it was fun. we had a great time. =)
walked around bugis junction after that. jus knew that when u do not hav much money in ur pocket, u dun really hav much interest to walk around also. sianzz.
and guess what? we drank! we bought alcohol and brought it back to hostel. sheesh... this's so illegal lah! it's banned in the hostel! but heck, not that we're scared of being expelled anyway.

glad that for the coming one week, i will not be molding away in the hostel anymore.
fully booked for outings =) with scholars gang, sis, pui, and aunt. haha.
and need to start cracking to pack my stuffs.
reference books? throw away. clothes? give away. notes? recycling. wahahaha. i will be left with two luggages only to bring home.
looking forward to thursday night. the finale of the scholars' outing. gonna have dinner at seoul garden, and mayb stay out after that. woohoos!

kk. take care.

Date: Sunday, November 19, 2006
Time: 12:10:00 AM

finally i know what's the true meaning of being free, and BORED.
i'm almost bored to death. the post-exam feeling isn't as wonderful as what i thought it would be.
before exams and during exams, i woke up with a purpose at heart, or rather, a goal to achieve.
after exams, i don't have a single thing in mind that i want to complete.
i'm feeling empty from the inside.
the thought that i'll be having six months of vacation is pleasing enough. on the other hand, i'm also unsure whether i will be able to spend the time wisely and constructively.
it's true that after all the hardwork, it's time to relax a little and enjoy. but i also can't let myself be a totally useless person. i can't jus eat and sleep. it jus doesn't feel right. it's like when u wake up in the morning and about to get up, u realise that exam is over and you decide to continue sleeping. omg, this's so wrong man!
and the thought of having to pack up is sickening enough. there are so so so many stuffs. how am i supposed to bring them all back home?
throw them away? there are jus certain things that you feel so attached to that u're not willing to part with them for the rest of ur life.
sigh. if possible i'll try to settle everything on my own. maybe put some at sis's place and some at aunt's. i'll try not to bother dad, it jus doesn't make sense to bring them all the way back home and bring them here again next year.

watched 'amityville horror' and 'high school musical' with hanh on her laptop till wee hour. the previous is scary. probably the most disturbing horror flick that i hav ever watched. probably because it's based on true story. and it's bloody. we sreamed at certain scenes in the show. do not watch it if you think u are not brave enough to take the shock. u can have insomnia after that.

and the latter is nice. very sweet and meaningful. i totally love it. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. watch it if u have time.

enjoyz.

Date: Friday, November 17, 2006
Time: 4:46:00 PM

finally it's all over.
yay!!!!
i've never felt this free before.
finally we have pulled through. we definitely rock man....
this time round i can really take a good break, and enjoy myself for the coming 6 months. this is really long. never have i in my life had such a long break before.
but i'm not gonna slack and play for this long. i'm just not this kind of people. haha. feel so dumb and......useless. the worst thing is that at the end of 6 months i will be so fat that u can't even recognise me. so i guess i will work before uni starts...
for both the money and the experience... =D

haha. going to uni used to be such a 'faraway' thing for me.
but now the time is like approaching...
time really flies.
4 years jus passed like that. but i'm really glad that i have learnt a lot for all these years. especially in the aspect of making decision for myself, and settling problems on my own. i'm such an independent girl. lols =)

a lot of 'gan cu' after the last paper jus now. but jus can't express it through words.
will miss jj a lot a lot a lot. and the people. :'(

p/s: must keep in touch even after we have gone separate ways okay? prom is the last function that we can have together. so must dress up till very nice hor.

if possible, we organise another class outing before i leave okay?

Date: Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Time: 8:35:00 PM

finally we are approaching the end of all these sh!t.
not that i hate exam or what, jus think that it's drilling and draining... i can feel that my energy is kind of like draining, and i feel really really exhausted.
i dun wanna care about how the results will turn out to be like. the only thing i know is that i have done my best.
really, for the past one month or so, i hav not been resting. should say that i didn't dare to. kahfong and i went to school to study everyday, even during weekends. and the weird thing is that we didn't feel tired at all.
only when exam is coming to the end, we feel that our energy is dying off...
glad that it's gonna be done in two days' time. if this continues to drag on, i have the feeling that by the time exams finish, i will be finished too, lols.

around two more weeks to go before i pack my stuffs and go home.
think i'm gonna miss lots and lots of people ba..
though it's not that i'm not coming back anymore, everybody knows that there's a possibility that our paths may not cross again.
but this is jus how life supposed to be like. in the process of growing up, we meet different people, and when it's the time to part, we take a deep breath and let go. then, we move on to another chapter of life, meet new people, and continue the cycle.
but i think the important thing is that no matter what, we still keep remembrance of each other and bear in mind that in our lives, we once created impact on each other.
haha. i'm feeling sentimental again.
can't help it. for people who has experienced parting for so many times, this jus automatically occurs to me.
many of a time i wanna shout 'i dun want to leave!!!!!' but at the end u still have to give in to what's called 'life'.
argh...
anyway...
will learn to be stronger.

lastly, all the best for chem mcq on friday!!
last paper liao!!
hurray~

Date: Wednesday, November 1, 2006
Time: 10:29:00 AM

SO HERE I AM blogging just one day before the commencement of the long waited GCE 'A' LEVELS EXAMINATION.
just want to wish all my frens luck, and put in our very best to do well alright? =D

was jus telling kfc yesterday that the work that we have done for the recent two weeks is probably more than what we have done thoughout the two years of jc life. this's what u call last minute work. wakaka.
and yes. yesterday was having dinner with mr wong and we were joking that if all the students in singapore are to gather their notes and burn them, we can probably create a 'year-end haze' or 'post-exam haze' or something like that. haha. so nonsensical but come to think about it, it does make some sense.

was having a good chat with angel and pui in the room ytd.
we started off discussing some GP question on science and tech...
and we ended off laughing like mad. ngel said she read somewhere that once human beings could fly, and due to the food that we eat these days we get denser and denser and therefore we can no longer fly.
at first we were baffled, cos it jus doesn't make sense.
and we started imagining all kind of senarios.
like we will have human droppings around instead of the birds', and people will start decorating their 'wings' instead of putting up make-up or dressing up like what we do now.
anyway, that's jus for laugh.

serious matter now.
GP tomorrow and i'm kinda worried.
dunno what cambridge will do to the last batch of the students of the current syllabus.
anyway, jus do my best ba.

dear all,
ALL THE BEST!

and....

GOD BLESS!